THE CONSEQUENCE OF BEING YOURSELF

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It's the Karen Kenney show. Hey you guys, welcome to

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the Karen Kenney show. I'm so happy to be here with you for a

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bunch of different reasons, but the first one being is, I'm just

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sitting here. I can't believe it's March. March 7 is just a

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couple of days away, and March 7 will be the seven year

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anniversary of the Karen Kenney Show podcast, which is just

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crazy to me. This is episode 356

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so that's a lot, that's a lot of years, that's a lot of shows,

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that's a lot of me talking, running my big mouth, that's a

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lot of you guys tuning in. So just thank you so much to all of

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my loyal listeners. And if you're new here, welcome. I'm so

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happy to have you. I just can't believe so much time has passed.

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And you know I mean, God willing, I'll be able to keep

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doing another seven you know what I mean. Okay, so just

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wanted to say that thank you so much for being here. And this

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episode, I'm going to try to keep my thoughts straight, man,

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but I have so many things on my hat and on my mind these days,

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and I wrote down a few notes for myself, and I'm just going to do

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my best. But one of the things I want to, I think I want to kind

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of dive into this episode, saying this so much of the work

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that I do with people, and I work with people in a lot of

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different ways. You guys know that, right? I've been a yoga

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teacher forever. I do Thai Yoga, massage, Thai Yoga, body work,

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spiritual mentor, coach, hypnotism, right? I do gateless

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writing. I'm a writer. Really. What I am more than anything is

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a writer and a storyteller.

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You know, guest teacher, fucking retreat leader, whatever. I do a

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lot of shit, but so much of the work that I do is an extension

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of the work that I do and have done with myself, right towards

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myself, all of the tools, all the skill sets, all the

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different things that I have gathered were for me first,

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because I had to go first, because I had some stuff I was

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navigating right. I'm like, Hello, have you met me right? My

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childhood, my life, whatever. And so one of the things that I

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became aware of back in the day when I started really, do we

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want to call it a journey? I don't know. Man, I was just

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living my life and trying to be the best person I could be and

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learn about myself. And so that's my point. So much of my

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work is built around this. This like self awareness, having more

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self awareness, having more self knowledge, really understanding

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yourself better, starting to know why you think, what you

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think, and say what you say, and believe what you believe, and

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hold the prejudices you hold, and and understand the systems

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that you're existing in, whether that's your family or your

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culture or just the greater, the systems of racism, the systems

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of patriarchy, the systems of whatever right just

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understanding who you are, where you are in the world, and how

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you got to be and behave and believe the way that you do. And

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so when I'm working with others, this is gonna just stay with me,

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because this is gonna tie into today's episode. I'm just trying

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to make a point so much of this, and I used to say, and I still

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say to all of my clients, right? So much of this is about owning

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both your brilliance like knowing who you really are,

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knowing your skill sets, knowing your talents, knowing how loved

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you are, how how much you matter. Notice, notice the

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positive impact you have the on the world, right? Owning your

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brilliance. But then you also have to own your bullshit. You

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have to own the places where you get triggered. You have to own

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the places where you tend to drop the ball. You have to own

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the places where you act like a dick, right? You know what I

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mean, where you lose your where you're like impatient, or you're

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unkind or whatever, or you don't keep your word to yourself and

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others. Whatever we have to, we don't have to. But I would

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encourage you to understand yourself, to know yourself, and

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the more that you can do, that you can make better choices that

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actually represent who you are and who you really want to be.

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Which brings us to today. You know, I might call this episode

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the consequences of being yourself, and I want to talk

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about that word consequences, but I'm also going to tell you

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where the heartbeat of this came from. So many of you may know

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that I am a Kripalu Yoga teacher. I have been a Kripalu

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Yoga teacher. I started teaching yoga in 1999 before I was ever

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certified. But I became certified in 2001

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and I lived at the Kripalu center for yoga and health out

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in the Berkshires in Massachusetts, Western

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Massachusetts. I lived there for a month, did my ytt, my yoga

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teacher training there, etc, etc. And every day I would walk

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by this picture of Swami Kripalu, who we called Bapuji.

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And the word Kripalu simply means compassion. And I would

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see this, this picture of this beautiful like, you know, the

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grandfaire. I call him one of my spiritual grandfathers, because

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I'm a part of his lineage, the Kripalu lineage, right? And so I

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would see his beautiful, smiling face throughout the building in

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different pictures, him and his.

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Saffron robes, you know. And there was this one quote that

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said, and people can argue about this, I don't really care

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whether it's true or real or not, whether it was in the

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Bhagavad Gita, whether, you know, one of the Kripalu

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teachers said it, or Swami Kripalu said it. I'm going to

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say there was a picture of his face. And then there was this

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quote that said, yoga is tolerating the consequences of

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being yourself. And you know how we often say, Oh, I saw this

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thing and it stopped me in my tracks. I mean, when I tell you

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this quote, literally stopped me dead in my tracks. I'll never

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forget the first time I saw it. I was coming down the stairs and

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it like was like, I'm coming down the landing, and boom, it's

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right there in front of my face. And I literally, kind of

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stopped, you know, stopped, you know, but like, when a dog, he

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has a funny sound, and he tilts his head. I kind of tilted my

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head, and I thought tolerating the consequences of being

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myself. What is that about? Right? Like, what are the

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consequences of being myself? And I started to think about

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this. Now,

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when I tell people, when I talk to people about this, right,

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there are consequences for you being the way that you are now,

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who you truly are underneath all your conditioning and your

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patterns and your behaviors and your history and your bullshit,

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underneath your personality and your ego and all that I believe

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there is the true you, the true blue, real deal, Holyfield, you,

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right? That, to me, is love. It is compassion, it's kindness,

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it's eternal. It never dies. When your body falls away, that

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energy that is you, that loving source of you, it continues,

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right? You don't have to believe the same thing as me. I just

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believe this. Okay, this is what I think. This is what I think I

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could be wrong, and maybe one day I'll find out, right. But

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for now, I think underneath it all that there is a divine spark

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that animates all of us, that this is who we are, okay, having

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said that, okay, I'm like, underneath, underneath that is

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this. But on top of that beautiful, divine spark of love

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and goodness and compassion and kindness and mercy and all those

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things, there is your personality. Your personality is

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often what I'm talking about, or what I believe this quote is

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talking about the consequence of being yourself. Now here's the

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thing about this word, consequence. Consequences. This

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word has a negative connotation. In our society, we often think

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of consequences as being something bad, right? Like, oh

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my god. But here's the thing, there can also be positive

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consequences. In fact, the word consequences is actually

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neutral. So as I often like to do, you guys know, I'm a little

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bit of a word nerd.

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So here's the definition. I'm going to read it to you. I'm

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just holding up the paper consequence noun. This is what

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it means a result or effect of an action or condition. Here's

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it. Here it is in a sentence, right? Many have been laid off

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from work as a consequence of the administration's policies.

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So it doesn't say that consequences are negative. There

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can also be positive consequences, and you can just

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switch out the word result or outcome, right? Sometimes there

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are positive outcomes, sometimes there are negative outcomes,

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sometimes there are negative results, and sometimes there are

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positive results. So the word consequence, and I thought this

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was important in this context, because the consequences of

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being yourself can have both positive impact on yourself and

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others, the world around you, the animals, whoever you're

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interacting with, it can also have negative consequences,

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right? So I wanted to get that clear as we move forward that

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consequences aren't just negative. They can be both, so

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a lot of times. And the reason why I'm talking about this is I

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don't think we spend enough time thinking about the consequences

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of us being ourselves in the way that we are in the world, the

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way that we talk, the way that we think, the way that we speak,

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the way that we believe, the way that we vote, the way we spend

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our money, how we do things. So many of us are on autopilot. So

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many people at thinking about things. They just are in their

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little world, on their, you know, when you when we were

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kids, we were because I was, you know, I always wanted, like,

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Tomboy, like, I guess you could just call them toys, but toys

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that, back in the day lean towards, like, being a quote,

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unquote tomboy or whatever, right? So I like GI Joe dolls. I

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didn't like dolls and stuff like, I wanted, like Tonka

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Trucks, and I wanted, like, race car tracks and like, I wanted

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all that stuff. Right back in the day you would have these

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little race contracts, and they would have like, little grooves

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in them. And so your cars would like zip around on the tracks,

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but they would stay, like, every once in a while we go, they

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would like go flying. And if you've ever had one, you know

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exactly what I'm talking about, it would go flying off the

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track. You know what I mean. And so Wait, how did I get on this?

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On talking about it? Oh, my God.

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I'm gonna have to pause because I gotta think about this for a

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second, Jesus.

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And I'm back, I just remember what the guy was talking about.

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Okay, so sometimes we just kind of get into this track, this

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groove, and we don't question anything. We don't look around.

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We're just like, oh, that's just how I am, that's just how they

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are. That's just how he is or she is. And we don't think about

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right? We don't question things. We just kind of do the same shit

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over and over and over again, but not realizing I think of it

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like when you're when there's a boat, and you're driving on a

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boat, and a boat always leaves a wake behind it in the water,

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right? Even if you're paddling, if you ever like, if you canoe,

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even if you don't have a moda, right? And you paddle that

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canoe, when you look back that little paddle being in the water

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and that stroke, it causes a little like swirl, a little Eddy

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in the water, right? It's like, whoo. So who and how we're

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being. It has consequences, both positively and negatively, and

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we have to be aware of this. And so I'm going to give you a few

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stories and a few examples of why this has kind of been on my

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mind. You know, I talk about, like, when I'm talking with

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people about creating a daily spiritual practice, right? I

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don't get too hung up on exactly what they're doing. I'm like,

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Hey, we created DSP. We create a daily spiritual practice.

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Because when you do a daily spiritual practice, when you

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start your day being more aware and being more conscious and

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having a conscious connection to something greater than you,

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however you might define that, your higher power, your highest

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self, Mother Nature, the universe, God source, the divine

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intelligence, the loving intelligence. I don't care what

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people call it. When you start your day in your awareness of

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relationship to that, you spend time in meditation or

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contemplation or prayer or just quiet time, right? You're doing

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things to like again, people's DSP can look 1000 different

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ways, but you're spending time in the morning doing, you know,

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morning pages you're writing out longhand. You're starting to

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kind of get your mind right. You're starting to get on board

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with the kind of day you would like to create and what you're

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going to get done and who you might come across right? That's

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why, you know, I say that that prayer every day. Have me go

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where you would have me go. Have me do what you would have me do.

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Have me say what you would have me say, and to whom please use

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me try to put yourself in service to something higher than

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you, to be used by a greater force, like a force of love, to

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be in service to love. Okay? Because doing that first thing

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in the morning, before you get on your phone, before you turn

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on the news, before you read the newspaper, before you start to

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become bombarded by the horrors and the tragedies that are going

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on out there, right? And yes, of course, there are some good,

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beautiful and holy things and people and stuff happening, but

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those don't sell papers. Those don't get clicks. So a lot of

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our news that we're being bombarded with is negative and

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scary because, oh, and your nervous system gets hijacked and

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you're just exhausted before you even go out the door. So having

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a daily spiritual practice at DSP, right? And when I talk to

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my clients about this, it helps to set you up for success. It

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helps to point you in the right direction, get you on the right

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track. You declare, this is the kind of day I'm going to have,

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and I'm going to get my rhyme right, and I'm going to, you

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know, do my best to do that again, not always successful,

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but you're way better off than having not done it right. When

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you start your day with a little gratitude and a little insight

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and a little like, you know, awareness beyond just you and

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your own world, right? Like, hello, we're all connected to

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each other. This is how we get through this thing together.

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Okay, you start your day like that. It's the difference I

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often say about going out into the world in an inspired way,

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versus going out and inflicting yourself on other people. I'm

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going to say that again, it's the difference between going out

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into the world in a more inspired way, right, versus

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going out and inflicting yourself on other people.

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Because if you're not aware of who you are and how you are, if

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you've got some sort of an attitude problem, if you're

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always angry or always complaining, are always

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miserable, or always just like, you know, whatever, if you're

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always greedy, if you're always in a place of expectation or

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privilege, or what's the word I'm looking for? You? What's the

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word I'm looking for? Entitled? Oh, my fucking god, people who

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move through the world in such an entitled way, you know what

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I'm saying? Oh, my God. You don't realize there are

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consequences to you being you and the way that you are each

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day, when you go out into the world, and even if you stay at

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home and work online, right you there are consequences to let's

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say you're somebody who

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doesn't I'm not judging people who don't clean. Everybody is

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different. Everybody has different levels of comfort and

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neatness around things like that. But, you know, there are

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consequences to not cleaning up. This is how you start to get

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bugs or cockroaches sometimes, or like, you know, if you never

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like cleaned up after your dog or your cat, you'll end up with

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shit and.

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Kiss everywhere in your house. You know what I'm saying. So

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there are consequences to the choices that we make and who we

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are and how we are. We're constantly teaching people. We

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are constantly demonstrating what we believe by what we do

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and don't do, by what we say and don't say by our actions, right?

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Okay, now I saw this really funny. Now I often do episodes,

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because something will keep coming to me in different forms,

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whether it's from the universe, universal signs. Kismet, you

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know, what do they call it? Coincidence, whatever people

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want to call it again. I don't get hung up on it, but I saw

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this really funny meme, and on it, just imagine there's a light

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switch on the wall and there's a finger going towards the wall,

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and the light switch right now is in the on position. It's up

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and on the up position. Other words, this contribute to

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society. And in the off position, it says menace to

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society. I thought this was so freaking funny, right? And it's

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like, yeah, we're gonna choose. Like, you know when people say,

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Oh, he woke up today and he chose violence, right? Well, so

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in each moment, right? Each day, we are deciding, how am I going

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to be again? Am I going to go out into the world, right and

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own my brilliance and move in an inspired way, or am I going to

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go out into the world in my bullshit, in my patterns, in my

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trauma, in my stuff, right, in my wounds? It's okay if you have

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wounds, but if you're not aware that you have a wound that you

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is bleeding out, it will have a consequence ultimately, right?

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But sometimes your blood is getting all over everybody else.

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Okay? So it's like, am I going to go out into the world in that

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more inspired way, or am I going to go out and be a menace to

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society? Am I going to inflict myself on people? And it's not

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always in these grandiose ways, right? You ever hear that phrase

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death by 1000 paper cuts? Right? If you're living with somebody

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who is in their own insecurity, so they're jealous, or they're

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whatever, so they'll just take these little pot shots at you,

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or they'll start to do weird shit, like looking through your

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phone or like, Now, look, I get sometimes that's necessity,

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because you understand that somebody's doing something

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dangerous or whatever. I'm not again, I'm not here to judge

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people's actions. I'm just saying there are times when we

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know that, like something is up and it's like, right? But

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people's insecurity also has consequences. I got a story

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about that for another time, right? But if you don't check

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yourself, you're not only going to wreck yourself, you're going

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to wreck other people that are around you. And this is why I

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often say to like parents, especially if I'm working with a

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parent, I'm like one of the greatest gifts you can give your

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kids is to get your shit together, is to know yourself,

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to know your history, to know your your your trauma that has

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been passed down from generation to generation, your happiness,

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your sense of self, your sense of safety, your sense of knowing

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who you are, your sense of feeling a connection to your

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history and your people and your ancestors in your past. Right to

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be grounded in even if your your origin, your family of origin,

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was a shit show. You can get out of that once you're an adult,

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most of the time. Not everybody can. I understand that, but most

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people can, and they can start to live differently and choose

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differently and behave differently, right? And so that

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meme was making me think about this, right? Am I going to be a

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contribution? Am I going to contribute to society, or am I

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going to be a fucking menace to society? And I got to tell you,

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there's a lot of people out in the world right now who are

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being a menace to society, and whether or not like I'm just

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thinking about right our current, this current

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administration, and thinking about Trump, I got to say this,

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whatever you feel about that. I know strongly how I feel. And

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this to me, just from not even a political point of view, just

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from a personal human like in the work that I do observing

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human behavior. This is a person who has been inflicting himself

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on others for a really long time. This is a person who does

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not seem self aware at all,

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or the story they tell themselves about who they think

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they are is not as cognitive dissonance there. But I'll tell

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you this, when a person like that makes a decision to go to

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war without not even going to the correct channel, just

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illegally starting a war for his own means, whatever, and then

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you bomb a girls school and you kill over 150 people, mostly

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children, mostly little girls. This is a person who is

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inflicting themselves on the world. This is a person who is

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there are consequences to that person being who and how they

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are. And I don't know about you, but I don't want to be that kind

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of person. I want to be able to own my shit. I want to I want to

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become more aware of my blind spots and know what pushes,

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quote, unquote, my buttons and what gets me scared or anxious

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or worked up or whatever, and not not showing up from a place

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of love. I want to understand the ways that I go into fear or

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lack or scarcity or whatever, what my pattern.

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Have been now, sometimes we need help, right, figuring that stuff

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out. That's why there are counselors and coaches and

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mentors and therapists and whatever. This is why we have

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support groups like Al Anon and AA and over eat is anonymous and

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this, that and the other thing, that's why there are communities

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like the nest, like I run, right? Sometimes we need help

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kind of navigating this whole being human experience, because

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it's fucking hard. It's hard, but we can only there's only so

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many excuses you can make. Right? Like I said to a client

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the other day, trauma explains a lot of things, right? Our

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trauma, our stories, what happened. It explains how we got

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here, why we might kind of be the way that we are, but it does

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not excuse once we understand and once we know what we do

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going forward, we can't just keep blaming it on our poor

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childhood and the thing that happened to us at some point.

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And I understand we're all existing also within systems.

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I'm not saying that all everybody's starting at the same

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place, or has the same resources, but I am saying that

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when we start to get little glimpses of, Oh, when I do this,

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that happens when I say that, that happens when I say to do

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this or not do that, or whatever, me being myself, it

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has consequences both positive and negative. If you think about

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somebody who's an alcoholic, especially if they're a parent

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or in a marriage or a relationship or a family, or

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they just have friends who care about them, right? And they're

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starting to drink too much, and it starts to get out of control,

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and now they're driving drunk, and they're doing things right,

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they're not only having consequences on their own mental

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well being, sometimes their jobs, sometimes their families,

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sometimes their relationships. They lose those and there are

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consequences that they personally pay, but there's also

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other consequences. I remember when I was a bartender, and I

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would see people come in and day after day after day just

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drinking themselves slowly to death and the like I'm not

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saying like, Oh, poor me, because I was, you know, had to

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see that. But I will say, as a sensitive person, it weighed

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heavy on my hat. It's why I stopped bartending. It was one

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of the reasons I'm like, I don't want to come here every day and

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watch people slowly kill themselves, watch people get

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sloppy, watch people get belligerent and mean, watch

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people, you know, sitting at the bar, coming there every day

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because they're deathly lonely, but they don't talk to anybody

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about it, whatever, whatever, whatever. And again, I'm not

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judging people who drink. These are just examples of how I kind

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of see it. And one of the most powerful things that I saw this

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week that kind of points to this consequence of being yourself.

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Now this video might be months old, a year old. I don't even

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know. I just saw the video, and it just was like getting punched

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in the face. And it's a video of this guy, and I tried to find

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the real story, or the back story. I see different people

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saying different things about it, but I will say this, there's

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apparently a woman. She might be a woman of color. She's standing

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on her porch as she's in her yard, and apparently this guy

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has done this before. So there's a guy, a white guy, driving down

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the street in a pickup truck. She's just in her yard,

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whatever. Now he obviously has a problem with her. Some stories

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said it was because of her bumper stickers. Some stories

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said it was because she was black. Some stories said it was

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because he was a neighbor, and they don't get whatever. I don't

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really know the reason, and it doesn't on some level, on some

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level, it doesn't matter to the point that I'm trying to make.

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So he's driving down this quiet, little residential street in his

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truck. She's in her yard or on her porch, you don't know,

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because the vantage point is from her camera. She's filming,

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and she's filming this guy as he's driving down the street,

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and as he gets close to her house and he sees her, he

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basically turns his head to look at her, and he flips her the

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bird, right? He does the fuck you with his finger. Okay?

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Because he's distracted, because he's caught up in being himself,

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which is, I'm going to be this guy that flips off this woman

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who's in her yacht or whatever, he ends up swerving his car. He

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hit his truck, he scrapes up a packed car, bounces up onto the

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sidewalk and then slams into a concrete wall.

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And I'm watching this, and the whole time I'm just cringing.

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I'm cringing from everything, from the fact that this woman

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was filming him, which tells me this has probably happened

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before. She's been harassed, or he's mean or out of control, and

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whatever, she's documenting it for a reason that was like, Oh

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man, that hurt my hat. Then I see what he does, and I'm like,

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Oh my god. Can you imagine being this woman and having to deal

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with this shit? Now, again. I don't know that. I don't know

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the real story of what's going on, but I'm just, you know, from

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what I saw. Then I watch him wreck another person's car

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that's just packed on the street. Then he could have, he

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could have hit somebody, if anybody had been walking on that

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sidewalk, thank God there wasn't. And then he slams his

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own truck into the car and.

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Know what he says

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first of all, and I don't, I don't usually say this word, but

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I'm going to say it just so you get the this is not a word for

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whatever. I swear. I swear like a sailor, but this is just isn't

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something that you know what I tend to say, but this is what he

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says. He puts it in pack, he swings open his door, and he

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screams, god damn it.

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And the second thing he screams in her direction is, I fucking

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hate you.

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And then he says again, God damn it. And now he's having a

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tantrum like a toddler. He's like stomping his feet. And she

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just very calmly says, are you okay? And he yells, no. And now

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he's walking in the street looking at the car he just hit,

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and she says, are you hurt? And he says, Yes. And she says,

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physically. And he walks away. And what I hear is, I give up.

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Somebody else said somewhere that they interpreted it as I

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need help, but I heard I give up. And then he just kind of

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like, says, I'm gonna fucking die. And I'm

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just like, Oh, my God, this right here encapsulates the

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consequences of being yourself. Because he had no self control.

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He felt the need to flip this person off. And some people are

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like, Oh, it's instant comma, whatever. I found no joy in this

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video at all. The whole thing just made me sad. It was just

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like such a shit show of dysregulation, and this is what

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I'm talking about. If you have no self knowledge, if you have

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no self awareness, if you don't understand the workings of your

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own mind, like, seriously, we are I'm hitting my body right

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now. We are operating heavy machinery. You should understand

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how your brain works. You should get a book at the library, and

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if you can't read, listen to it on tape or something like that,

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but start to understand how your body and your brain and your

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nervous system works. Learn a little bit about trauma, learn a

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little bit about our history. Learn a little bit about, like,

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just all of it, right. Like, learn about how we find

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ourselves, where we are at this particular point in time. But

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start on the micro start with yourself. Start with yourself.

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Because whether we like it or not, there are consequences of

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us being ourselves, and we don't just inflict it on us. Animals

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pay the price all the time for people being themselves. Animals

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pay the negative consequences of people deciding that they don't

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have value, that their products that we wear and that we eat and

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that we murder and that we use for entertainment, right? There

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are consequences to us just being here, alive on the planet

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and what we're doing to the planet, in the environment and

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Mother Nature. Our choices matter, our self knowledge

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matters, our self awareness matters.

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I can literally go on and on and on about this, right? But it's

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so important you guys, am I going to contribute to society,

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or am I going to be a menace to society? And when you don't know

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yourself, when you don't understand the consequences of

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you being you, right? There are positive consequences, your

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brilliance, own that that's beautiful, but do not turn a

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blind eye to the negative consequences, right? Going out

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and inflicting yourself on others, you're also inflicting

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yourself, sometimes on yourself. Now, I can't make people want to

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do that kind of work. I just say I'm here when people are ready

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to do that work. You know, I'm easy to find. Karen kenney.com

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you know, this is the work that I continue to do on myself,

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because I got to keep an eye on my own nonsense and my own

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bullshit. You know what I mean? If I have a blind spot, I expect

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my friends, my sweetie, my best friends, right to go like, hey,

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hey, like, compassionately, right? And, like, do it kindly,

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or I'm not interested. But you can say anything to me. It's

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about the way that you say it to me, right? If I know that you're

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on my team, if I know you're on my side and you're trying to be

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helpful, I can hear just about anything. So here's the thing,

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you guys, that's where I'm gonna leave it with. I gotta run. I

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gotta go. I have a client. Actually, I gotta go. I gotta go

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give a Thai Yoga massage. So just thank you for tuning in.

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Thank you for being a part of my podcast. Family. Yay. For seven

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years, I'm so excited. I hope something that I shared from my

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heart today also lands in yours. If it was helpful in some way,

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share it with somebody else. Or send up a flare, let me know,

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because I got to tell you, sometimes having a podcast or a

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newsletter or whatever, you're just kind of sending it out into

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the ethers and you don't know, like you, yeah, I could look at

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my stats and be like, Oh, this many people listen, but I don't

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know how long they're listening. I mean, I guess I could really

Unknown: 00:29:45

do the deep dive, but it's so nice to feel like there's a

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connection in a community. So if I share something and it

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resonates with you, or it makes you think, or you go, Oh, or

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even if you disagree a little bit, whatever, right? It's nice.

Unknown: 00:29:58

Send up a flare. Let me know. Reach out and.

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Talk to me and let me know I bump into people out in public.

Unknown: 00:30:03

Sometimes I have no idea, no idea that they listen to the

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show, and then all of a sudden they'll say, Oh, I listened to

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the show. Like, hearing that. It's like, it's nice. It's like

Unknown: 00:30:11

getting a little warm hug, right? It's sweet. It's like,

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oh, maybe this is, like, is landing for people, or making a

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difference, or whatever. And we all want to know that, don't we?

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We all want to know that it's something that we're doing or

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how we're trying, you know, it's it matters.

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It's not why we do it. You know, I'm not doing it for the likes,

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the clicks, the follows, the whatever, but it is nice to know

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that it is landing in people's hats. So I appreciate you so

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much. Thank you for being here. Thank you for listening wherever

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you go. May you leave yourself in the animals and the

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environment and the other people that you come into contact with

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better than how you found them wherever you go? May you and

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your energy and your love and your presence? May it be a

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positive consequence? May it be a blessing? Bye.

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Hey. Thanks so much for listening to the show. I really

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love spending some time together. Now, if you dig the

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show or know someone that could benefit from this episode,

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please share it with them and help me to spread the good word

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and the love. And if you want to be in the know about all of my

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upcoming shenanigans, head on over to Karen kenney.com/sign

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Bye. You.