THE IMPORTANCE OF SHOWING UP

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Hey, you guys, welcome. Welcome to the Karen Kenney show. Excuse

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me for being such a weirdo. Oh my god, I just kept hitting the

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stat and stop button a couple of times. And I don't know what's

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wrong with me, but and we're back here. We are welcome.

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Welcome to the Karen Kenney show. I think I'm a little

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discombobulated because I was gonna do a show about something

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else, but then I was like, it was like, Ooh, sto TJ, spiritual

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team on the job. It was like, No, I know what we're gonna talk

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about, so I'm going to be just riffing off the top of my head,

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so forgive me, I'm really going to try to keep it short and

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concise and to the point, but this is on my hat, and I wanted

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to say this so you ever seen those videos, you guys of like

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little kids? You know, they're like, four years old, five years

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old, six years old, whatever, and they're at their school play

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or their recital, and they're up on stage, and they're just kind

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of like looking out into the audience, and you see them

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looking a little nervous and anxious, and then all of a

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sudden they spot their parents or a sibling or their Auntie or

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whoever, their guardians, right? And their whole demeanor

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changes, right? Like they just light up. You see it in their

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face, in their energy, their body language, and they're like,

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Oh my God. Like, you're here, you're here. You know, it's The

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Sweetest Thing. And sometimes you see it like, like, adult,

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you know, adult parents surprising their kids, like the

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kids didn't think they were going to make the football game

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or the basketball game or the graduation or the event, or

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whatever the thing is. And you just see this common thread

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through when they're little wee ones all the way up to when

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they're adults, right? Like I'm talking like even the parents,

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like people surprising other people by showing up. I fucking

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love these videos, like double A men hands, if you're with me and

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you love those videos too, of people being surprised in a good

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way. Like, I don't like bad surprises. I don't like when

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people prank each other and whatever, but I will. I can sit

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and watch like all day, like people being surprised in the

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most positive way by other people's thoughtfulness or

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kindness or love, and I had my very own experience of this. And

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so when I was thinking about this, I was like, You know what

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I want to talk today about the importance of showing up. Now, I

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know I talk a lot on other episodes about, like, how you're

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showing up, you know, like showing up for yourself, like

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data, all these things, but this act of showing up for others,

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especially when they're doing something new or scary or

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exciting or big, or this is the first time they've ever taken a

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leap of faith in this direction, or whatever the thing is,

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showing up matters so much now telling them you're going to

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show up is a big deal, and if you can't show up, right, maybe

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sending them a little note of a Karen encouragement, or

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following up the next day after the event, or whatever, letting

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them know in some way you wish you could teleport your ass

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there and be there. They're just going to be times in our life

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when we can't be there. But, man, if we can make it work and

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we can make it happen, showing up makes such a huge difference.

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So this past I have a good story for you. So this past weekend,

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you know, if you listen to the show regularly, I've been

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talking about how I just took a leap of faith, did my first,

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created, my first ever like at piece to be put into this at

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exhibition that was called the mothership, and it was this

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whole thing. It's about my mom. Think of the piece is almost

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like a trailer to my book and my memoir, right? So, it's a, it's

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a pretty it's a pretty big piece. You know, it's on a

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canvas, and then it comes off the wall. It's a mix I learned.

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I learned that what I created was a quote, unquote, mixed

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media installation. So I also learned, I learned something new

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about what I was doing. So that was really cool. But the

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highlight of this story is that you know two of my friends who,

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like two of my dearest and beloved friends, JT and megs,

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okay, Jessica. Belong to Jessica. You know her. Her

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married name is blanti, but she was Jessica Todd, so I call her

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JT, so and then meg, meg Haynes, Meg marinaccio, who I call megs,

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okay, so megs and JT, they're a little bit younger than me.

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They're in there in a different phase of their life in that they

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have wee ones, right? They have little kids. So first of all,

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you know, JT runs like this incredible Premier, like hair

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salon in Portsmouth. You know, Meg's got her hands full. Meg's

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also a creative, you know, she's an intuitive, she's a healer,

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she's a spiritual teacher. She does human design. She's a

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dancer. And a writer and actor and she can sing like, I mean,

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my friends are so creative. Many of my friends, right? Almost so

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many of my friends are incredibly creative human

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beings. But these two just have really busy lives, like running

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business, taking care of things and their children. So I didn't

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think like, I had no expectation that they were going to be able

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to come to the opening reception. Right now, the show

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is up for like, a whole month, so I just figured like, okay,

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they're not going to be able to come. Probably I'm still going

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to invite them, but no no expectations, no hard feelings,

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whatever. So these two basically said to me when I first told

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them about it, like they were just over the moon so happy for

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me, like, oh my god, this is amazing. I'm going to do

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whatever I can, you know, trying to, like, we'll try to, you

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know, I'll, you know, if I have to reschedule a client at work,

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I like, but, you know, I'm going to do my best. That was kind of

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the message, I'm going to do my best. And I was like, Okay. And

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then, like, the day before, JT, I think she wrote me a message

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saying that she wasn't going to be able to make it. And she

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wrote this, like, this long thing, but I love you, and I

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hope you have a great time. And then Meg left me a voice

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message, just saying, I'm so sorry. You know, Mike, her

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husband, has a has an event tonight, and I couldn't get, I

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couldn't find a babysit, blah, blah, blah, whatever, the whole

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thing. And all I know is, I'm like, okay, they're not going to

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be able to come. I kind of figured this might happen,

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because I understand how busy they are. But they're like,

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we'll pick another time, because the show is up for the whole

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month to come up. And I'm like, perfect, great. I can't wait.

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Blah, blah, okay, so and that, like, I have kind of, how do I

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say this? How do I say some of you are going to be able, I

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think, to relate to this. I'm just being totally transparent

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and honest. I have it's, I get my hopes up all the time, but I

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also have a deal with myself, meaning like, I hope they can

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come, it'll be great if they can come like data, but I do my best

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to not be disappointed if my hope or call it slash

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expectation. I always try. I try not to have expectations,

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because, as you have heard me say many times, expectations are

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premeditated resentments, right? But we'd be liars if we didn't

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like, say like, but I really was hoping that people could come,

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or blah, blah, blah, okay, and I'm going to tell you about the

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other people who came to but I did not. I just, I was just

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like, okay, they can't come. I'm not going to be sad about it. It

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is what it is, and I'll see them like when we plan another day,

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and that's what it is so you kind of convince yourself that

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it doesn't matter. And I think this is a protective mechanism

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that also got installed in me from when I was like a kid,

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right? A kid with a lot of trauma is, you know, I'm very

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independent. Maybe I'm sometimes hyper independent. It's not that

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I believe I don't need other people. I've worked on that,

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right? I know I need other people, and I also don't like to

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make other people feel guilty if they can't show up for me. I

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never want to feel like a burden, like double A man hands,

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if you know what I mean, I don't ever want to feel like a burden.

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I don't like to ask for help too much, like I'll ask for help

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now, which is huge steps in my journey, right on this path of

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not being a totally traumatized, hyper, hyper, hyper, like,

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independent person, right? So I but I was like, I had made peace

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with it. They weren't going to come. So you got so I'm at the

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event. I'm at the opening reception, and I'm seeing like

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this 14 artists total. So there's a bunch of people, like

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50 some odd people in this, in the in the writing Gallery, and

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they're all moving around and looking at stuff. But I kind of

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was at my spot, because my piece has a lot of pictures and

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different things, and so I was like, you know, people were

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asking me a lot of questions, so I didn't really ever turn

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around, meaning I wasn't like, standing there and getting to,

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like, look around the room and seeing who's coming in the front

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door. I basically had my back to the front door, in the in the

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crowd, the rest of the people, most of the night, because I was

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pointing out things to people. So all of a sudden, as I'm

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breaking down, like, what's happening up on my my art piece,

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I feel a tap on my shoulder, and I turn around and standing

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there, right with like, JTS, get a box of vegan donuts from love

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bird donuts. Shout out to love bird donuts in Portsmouth. My my

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delivery system of, like, vegan donuts. I only get them when I

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go to Portsmouth, and JT brings them into the salon, the hair

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salon for me, so I can enjoy them. But so she's standing

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there with this bright pink box of like, six vegan donuts. Meg's

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there, you know, she's like, they've got a cup. Had for me

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and flowers and just like, but when I see their faces, like

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they JT was filming it, so it was perfect, so I could see my

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own like, wicked honest in real time, True Blue, right reaction

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to them showing up. And when I tell you first, I whip around, I

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jerk my head back, like, Oh, my God. And like, what am I seeing?

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It's like an apparition. It's an illusion. It's like a dream.

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It's magic, baby, right? I was like, what is happening right

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now, you know? And I so, I whip around my eyes, go big, I jerk

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my head back, I go, Oh. And then my whole nervous, you see, my

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whole face go like, Oh. And I just, I'm so overwhelmed with

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emotion, like I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I

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had to bend over, like, literally, like, hinged at the

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waist, like bent over. And that's when JT, I'll never

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forget this as long as I live, because JT is a fellow little

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mass hole like me, right? And JT leans over, and she goes, we got

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you motherfucker. So I'm bent over. I had to take my glasses

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off because I had started crying. And then she says this

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in my ear, we got you motherfucker. And I just stopped

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laughing. The whole thing was so fantastic, you guys. It just

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made my whole night that my friends, with their wicked busy

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lives and their children and the the moving, I just know I'm

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like, they probably had to move a little bit of heaven and earth

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to, like, get there, to be there for me. And it made such a huge

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difference. The little kid in me was just like it, I got to tell

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you, on some level, as I don't know, sentimental or weird, or

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however this might sound, I really felt like a little

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something, like clicked into place. There was a little bit of

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healing that happened in that moment, that whole night. It's

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like my nephew, Stevie and his wife, Brittany and Minnie.

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Stevie, their son, like my great nephew, they showed up. And my

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old dentist, who's one of my yoga students, Dr Bruce, he

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showed up. And Tony socco T, who was like my I guy, all my people

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are retiring. Oh my god. So T showed up, and like some of my

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yoga students, like Victoria, brought her family, and they

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showed up. And Terry, who is in the nest, and I've never met

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Terry in person, we only see each other online. Terry drove

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and brought a friend and literally brought me this

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beautiful gift of a nest, a Robin's nest, that was from her

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Yad. It was like I and like I could go on, like I could just,

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I'm not leaving anybody out on purpose. But it was just like

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all these people from different walks of my life, you know,

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like, showed up for me, and I was just like, wow. I could feel

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it like my body was buzzing. I just feel like I always talk

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about the Little Librarian up in a little librarians, like, up in

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my head, right in my, in my in my subconscious, in my brain.

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You know, it's like they put out the alert. They put out the

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alert to the to the other little worker bees in the system, right

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in my body. Like, like, let's do a little repairing. Because I

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could just feel like it was the most wonderful feeling. And I

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was like, oh my god, this is what I see in those videos when

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the little kid is searching the crowd or the stands, you know,

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for their people, for their balcony people. And if you guys

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have never listened to that episode, it's like, one of the

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first, I mean, it's way in the beginning. It's like, I think I

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called it balcony and basement people. I think it's way in the

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beginning. It's been a long time. But when you're balcony

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people, so when, if you've ever read, let me describe balcony

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people to you. For me, you know the Where the Wild Things Are,

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you know that book where the wild things are and the wild

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things are kind of making a rumpus and a ruckus, right? Like

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they're walking around and they're like Duncan and like

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they're matching and whatever. So when I think of, when I think

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of your balcony people, I think of the people who, if you were

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doing, like a book reading or a book signing, or you had a gig,

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or you were acting, or you were graduating, or you're up on

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stage, or you're doing whatever it is, right, a fashion,

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whatever your thing is, a creative endeavor, right? Or

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you're celebrating something. They're the people that would be

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up in the stands or up in the balcony making a rumpus. They

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would be like, stomping their feet and swinging their jacket

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over their head, like, going, yeah, like, that's my kid, or

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That's my cousin, or those, that's my person and we love

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you, or like, Yeah, whatever they're yelling. These are the

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people who see you, get you, celebrate you don't feel

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diminished by your success, by your creative endeavor, like

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they are cheering you on and seeing you succeed and seeing

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you. Happy makes them more happy, not like jealous and

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weird and whatever you know what I mean. So when you're balcony

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people, and even if you only have one balcony person, it is

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something like, invest in that relationship. But when those

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people showed up for me, right? Like Kelly, who I'm renting

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space for, like, for my yoga class, right? It's like, I mean,

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to just see these different people in the community, in your

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walks of life, show up for you. I'm telling you, it does

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something. It does something, and if you can, because back in

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the day, I really think me many, many years ago, it's not that I

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wouldn't have been able to see them there and appreciate that

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they came and clock like my gratitude, like all of that

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would have been the same. But there was something different at

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this age, at this time in my life, where now I could actually

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really receive, really receive the love like really let it in.

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Really feel worthy of it. Really feel like the power and the

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importance of their showing up and what it did for me, what it

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did to me inside my heart, it was a beautiful thing. I will

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not forget this light, this night for as long as I live,

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everything from the other artists work that the new

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artists that I met, the music that I heard, the pieces that I

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saw, the collective positive energy, the celebration of art

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and creativity. And if you are a mother, if you are local, if you

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are local, and can get to conquer and you are a mother of

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any kind, I am telling you to see this exhibition, I mean my

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friend so Meg's and JT were like reading the different things.

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Because the thing about this gallery is everything on the

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wall, even though it's an art gallery, because it's a writing

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gallery, everything on the wall that has to have text or prose

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or written word or copy in it in some way, right? So they were

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going around and reading all the pieces, and they were like,

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crying. They were like, oh my god, I needed to see this. I

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needed to hear this. And I think one of them said, I wish every

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mother I knew could come in and see this and see themselves in

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it. So I highly encourage you, you guys, if you're local to New

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Hampshire, and you can get there the it's called the 11th. It's

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spelled out the 11th letter writing gallery. You can just

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Google it. They're at 146 North Main Street in Concord, New

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Hampshire. It's such a fabulous thing. But the other reason why

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I'm saying this is this is just a reminder to all of us, to

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myself included, that we may not think it's a big deal whether we

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show up or not, but showing up does matter. And look, there are

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just going to be times, right? Like a lot of times, I might get

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invited to something, but if I get invited last minute, I can't

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usually make it happen. My life is I know I do have freedom in

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my life, but it's also very structured. Like, there's a lot

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of weekends where I'm doing a workshop, or I'm working on my

Karen Kenney: 00:18:07

book, or I have something going on, or I gotta record my

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podcast, or whatever the clients, whatever it is, you

Karen Kenney: 00:18:12

know, so sometimes it's a timing thing. Sometimes it's a

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financial thing. You can't afford a ticket to go. You can't

Karen Kenney: 00:18:20

afford what or whatever the thing is to an event, you can't

Karen Kenney: 00:18:23

travel whatever that you know there's something, you're ill,

Karen Kenney: 00:18:27

there's something going on. I know life happens and life gets

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in the way, but when we can really be there, man, does it

Karen Kenney: 00:18:34

make a difference? And this was such a powerful lesson for me.

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It was, it was, it was, I want to say it's not even so much

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that it was eye opening is so much it was. It was confirming.

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It was confirming to me that when we do show up, and whether

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it's to the funeral or the wedding or the school play or

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the show or the gig or whatever it is. And here's another little

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piece for me. If you can't show up physically in human form,

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right, you can still call you can still send a message, you

Karen Kenney: 00:19:13

can still send a card. You can still even some days, right,

Karen Kenney: 00:19:16

send flowers, whatever the thing is. But if you're going to send

Karen Kenney: 00:19:19

flowers, send a note. Don't just send the flowers. Is whatever

Karen Kenney: 00:19:23

that sounds, right, however that sounds, but like, let people

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know that you're thinking of them. And if you can't be there

Karen Kenney: 00:19:29

night of write to them the next day. Actually show some like

Karen Kenney: 00:19:33

curiosity. Put a little effort into it, you know, follow up.

Karen Kenney: 00:19:38

How's it going? Like, what happened? Tell me a story. Tell

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me more. Your curiosity is also incredibly powerful if you

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cannot be there in physical form. And there was a woman at

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the show who who is a psychic. Her name is Sarah Moore, and she

Karen Kenney: 00:19:54

did a great piece, but she came over and I hadn't made the

Karen Kenney: 00:19:57

connection who she was at first, till she started to. Talking to

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me, and what I wanted to say is, apparently my mother was also

Karen Kenney: 00:20:03

showing up at my Of course she was. I am 0% surprised. My mom

Karen Kenney: 00:20:10

is always with me, but apparently she had something to

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say. So my mother is really, really happy for me, and just

Karen Kenney: 00:20:19

telling me to run like, run with this book, and run with my art

Karen Kenney: 00:20:22

and to do these things. So it was pretty cool, but that's

Karen Kenney: 00:20:24

whole story for another day. But you guys, I just wanted to share

Karen Kenney: 00:20:27

that with you, that your presence matters. You being

Karen Kenney: 00:20:30

there matters. It makes such a difference to the people in your

Karen Kenney: 00:20:33

life. Now maybe there's a few people who would be like, I

Karen Kenney: 00:20:36

don't give a shit. Come, don't come, whatever, but it doesn't

Karen Kenney: 00:20:39

matter. I always say to my sweetie, I don't live my life

Karen Kenney: 00:20:43

based on like, what other people are gonna How do I say this? I'm

Karen Kenney: 00:20:48

like, just because they wouldn't show up for me doesn't mean that

Karen Kenney: 00:20:51

I'm not still gonna show up for them, whether they appreciate it

Karen Kenney: 00:20:54

or can have gratitude for it or whatever. Now, granted, there

Karen Kenney: 00:20:57

does come a time where if it feels way too imbalanced. I

Karen Kenney: 00:21:02

totally get why people are like, I'm not going to keep trying.

Karen Kenney: 00:21:05

I'm not going to keep feeding a relationship that is one sided

Karen Kenney: 00:21:09

or basically feels dead, like there's no pulse, like I often

Karen Kenney: 00:21:12

say I'm not doing CPR on this relationship anymore. You know

Karen Kenney: 00:21:15

what I mean. But so you get to choose for yourself. But all I

Karen Kenney: 00:21:18

know is that every single person that showed up, and some of them

Karen Kenney: 00:21:22

I got to see and hug really quick, and then I didn't get to,

Karen Kenney: 00:21:25

like, spend a lot of time talking with them, because

Karen Kenney: 00:21:27

people were asking me, you know, about the show and questions my

Karen Kenney: 00:21:32

also Jenny car. Jenny car showed up as well, another one of my

Karen Kenney: 00:21:35

yoga students. And all these people are were so lovely and so

Karen Kenney: 00:21:39

thoughtful. And I hope I'm just doing this off the top of my

Karen Kenney: 00:21:42

head, so I'm hope, I hope I'm not missing anybody. But it was

Karen Kenney: 00:21:45

just a beautiful night, the the the love that I felt, the

Karen Kenney: 00:21:50

support that I felt, and even if I didn't get to talk to and talk

Karen Kenney: 00:21:54

to each person at Deep length, I clocked who was there, unless

Karen Kenney: 00:21:59

somebody snuck in and didn't even say anything to me. I

Karen Kenney: 00:22:02

clocked every face that what I personally knew who was there,

Karen Kenney: 00:22:06

and it left. Like, I always talk about how, you know, we say in

Karen Kenney: 00:22:10

Massachusetts, or we said growing up, when somebody said

Karen Kenney: 00:22:13

something that did something, whatever hash or whatever, we'd

Karen Kenney: 00:22:15

be like, Oh, that's gonna leave a mark, you know, like, that's

Karen Kenney: 00:22:18

gonna leave, well, I will say this all the all these

Karen Kenney: 00:22:23

interactions, like totally left a mark on me in the best way, in

Karen Kenney: 00:22:27

the best way. So you guys, I keep doing my best to show up

Karen Kenney: 00:22:30

for you week after week after week. We've been at this for

Karen Kenney: 00:22:33

like seven years. Thank you to those of you who show up for me

Karen Kenney: 00:22:36

here you listen to the show you like, once in a while, right?

Karen Kenney: 00:22:41

Once in a while, I get a little tip in my tip jaw. Thank you. It

Karen Kenney: 00:22:46

means so much to me. Shannon, you know who you are, my

Karen Kenney: 00:22:48

childhood friend, and once in a while, you guys will send me a

Karen Kenney: 00:22:52

little email or a shout out, letting me know that this

Karen Kenney: 00:22:54

episode, or you'll leave a comment on YouTube or whatever

Karen Kenney: 00:22:57

it is. So it means a lot to me. So thank you for showing up. I

Karen Kenney: 00:22:59

never take it for granted. I'm always surprised when I bump

Karen Kenney: 00:23:02

into people on the street and they tell me they listen to the

Karen Kenney: 00:23:05

show. I'm like, you do? You just sit there? Listen to me be a

Karen Kenney: 00:23:08

little weirdo up in my office. It's awesome. But you guys,

Karen Kenney: 00:23:12

another way that we can show up for ourselves is by telling the

Karen Kenney: 00:23:16

stories that matter, like so much of what this show is about,

Karen Kenney: 00:23:19

besides spreading more love in the world, or whatever it's

Karen Kenney: 00:23:22

about getting to, you know, communicate what's on my mind

Karen Kenney: 00:23:24

and what's on my hat. But one of the other ways I do that is

Karen Kenney: 00:23:26

through writing. And I'm a gateless writing instructor,

Karen Kenney: 00:23:29

maybe I'll do a whole show about this. But if you are also this,

Karen Kenney: 00:23:34

first workshop is so I'm starting something called the

Karen Kenney: 00:23:37

right club, or it's just right club is what it is, but what it

Karen Kenney: 00:23:41

is is it's going to be a monthly workshop that I'm doing. It's a

Karen Kenney: 00:23:45

generative writing workshop. It's called write club. We have

Karen Kenney: 00:23:48

the first one coming up on Saturday, May 30, from one to

Karen Kenney: 00:23:52

4pm and it's at the writing gallery. I'm holding up the

Karen Kenney: 00:23:55

card. It's the writing gallery 146 North Main Street. And the

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link for that is going to be live shortly, probably tomorrow.

Karen Kenney: 00:24:06

So maybe I'll put it in the show notes. I don't know. I'll figure

Karen Kenney: 00:24:09

out a way to get it to you, but if you're not on my email list

Karen Kenney: 00:24:12

yet, that is one of the best ways. It's one of the best ways

Karen Kenney: 00:24:16

to to get on the like find out everything that I'm doing and

Karen Kenney: 00:24:22

stuff. So I'm gonna look it up really quick, because I would

Karen Kenney: 00:24:25

feel really bad if I gave you the wrong link. And I sometimes

Karen Kenney: 00:24:28

don't. I'm like, Oh, I better make sure that I that I'm giving

Karen Kenney: 00:24:34

you the right friggin link before I do this. There it is,

Karen Kenney: 00:24:41

yeah, so just go to Karen kenney.com so it's k, e, n, n,

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e, y, make sure you spell my last name right, Karen

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kenney.com backslash. Sign up one word, and that's how you can

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get on my email list. Wicked easy, and you'll find out all

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about the events, the exhibits, like things that I have going

Karen Kenney: 00:24:59

on. You'll get this podcast right into your inbox. Easy

Karen Kenney: 00:25:02

peasy. Thank you for your patience. Just then, while I was

Karen Kenney: 00:25:05

looking it up and double checking because I don't want to

Karen Kenney: 00:25:07

send you on a wild goose chase. So that's kind of what's going

Karen Kenney: 00:25:11

on over here. You guys, my hat was really moved. A little part

Karen Kenney: 00:25:14

of me was healed. A little part of the little kid in me who

Karen Kenney: 00:25:16

didn't always have people showing up to her games and her

Karen Kenney: 00:25:19

events and her stuff. It just meant the world to me. So it was

Karen Kenney: 00:25:24

amazing. And Jocelyn, who owns the gallery, is fantastic. And

Karen Kenney: 00:25:28

if you're local and you want to see the piece, and you kind of

Karen Kenney: 00:25:31

want to meet me there, and I can kind of talk to you about it,

Karen Kenney: 00:25:34

and whatever, if I'm around, I always say I'm happy to do it. I

Karen Kenney: 00:25:38

have a bunch of people who couldn't come to the event, who

Karen Kenney: 00:25:41

let me know that they still want to see it. So we're making plans

Karen Kenney: 00:25:44

to because the show is up until, like may 30. It's going to come

Karen Kenney: 00:25:48

down after my after my first write club over there at the

Karen Kenney: 00:25:53

writing gallery. So you guys, thank you so much. Wherever you

Karen Kenney: 00:25:56

go, may you leave the animals and yourself and the people and

Karen Kenney: 00:26:01

the environment and the planet better than how you found it

Karen Kenney: 00:26:04

wherever you go. May you and your presence and your love and

Karen Kenney: 00:26:09

your compassion, your energy and your showing upness, your your

Karen Kenney: 00:26:15

effort of showing up, right? May it be a blessing. Bye. Hey,

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thanks so much for listening to the show. I really love spending

Karen Kenney: 00:26:25

some time together. Now, if you dig the show or know someone

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that could benefit from this episode, please share it with

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them and help me to spread the good word and the love. And if

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you want to be in the know about all of my upcoming shenanigans,

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head on over to Karen kenney.com/sign, up and join my

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list. It'll be wicked fun to stay in touch. Bye. You.